Monday, March 5, 2012

Allison and Dad are some rocks of mine.

One year ago today I was lucky enough to marry my love Allison. It was a physically dreary day but it was such a beautiful day. In fact I would have it no other way. So many loving and close people came to celebrate with us. I was gaining a beautiful and strong lady in my life and I couldn't have been happier. It was such a special day.

 It was really a process of gaining a new rock in each others lives. The ceremony was really justAllison and I running thru the rock rules. We need to be there for each matter what is going on...we need to be there for each other. Allison and I are going to go thru a lot but a rock is something so important to have.  To let someone else be a rock for you is scary. You put so much into a person and hope they don't leave but hope they stay and help.  To truly appreciate have to open up to the rock....share experiences together...

It was so important to me that if he was able to...I wanted my dad to be my best man. He couldn't hear and had struggled with dementia and heart problems for years. I was told by a few to choose someone else. There was no choice to me. My dad had been my rock since I was born.  I mean a rock. A very strong loving man with a charm and humor that makes you feel at peace. My dad was there and we all celebrated together. It was such a special day.

Well my dad passed away this pass tuesday and though the day was was again a beautiful day shared with so many loving and caring people.  I lost a big rock in my life in my dad. It has hurt me so. I am going to blog on that later but not having him here is so hard. I can't put into words our bond or his love or my pain. That was a year ago that I gained a beautiful wife Allison.

I didn't know how Allison or I would handle this...Allison already having lost her parents and me losing one of mine for the first time.  Well Allison has been awesome. I wouldn't have been able to make it without her. She did everything asked and more. I can't tell you how much peace she has brought to me thru this hard time. I really lucked out with this rock of mine.  The loss of my dad hurts me so. I know I will lose more as life goes on but Allison reminds me without saying a word how much I have gained thru it all.

Here is a picture for our wedding last year with my dad and me walking together. I say goodbye to you for now dad but I will see you again. Until then...I know I have a beautiful rock here in my wife of a year.    Happy Anniversary Allison!!! I love you so!!! I hope to be a rock to you Allison as my dad was for me. Love you dad!!! Goodbye......for now