Lazy

I love lazy rivers! When I was a kid I actually thought they were kinda boring, but I loved the idea of them.  Maybe I like them because they are like a clean moat around a castle...maybe I like them because its a strange mode of transportation. I love trains and their tracks so maybe this is just past of that in a different way.  Maybe I love that you can get in and not do a thing and you move. Well since that time I thought they were boring...I have aged....and become kinda boring. 

When I was a kid I always spoke of a dream house for my family, friends, and I. My original idea was a grande house that had a great garden where my mom could spend all of her time. No other worries... she could just garden which she would love. This house was also to have a pond where my dad could go and sit, read, nap, and fish. He would love it. I use to tell people this and they always thought it was nice.  I was sincere.  Then my house turned into this large house that was really many houses combined. In each different part of the house was a different friend. We could all have our space and yet still be able to hang at any point.  

Well as time went on, I found out how crazy my ideal house would prob make me crazy.  Being around people that much would be insane....especially since most people are crazy and have soooo many problems they don't want to address.  I still think that the garden for my mom near my house would be nice and the pond would have been awesome.

Then I started turning my ideas to stuff for me....I wanted a train going thru the house....like on silver spoons. I wanted that. I still do....if not like that...at least a little train going thru. 

Then I decided on a lazy river in a house....oh man. You can get in and float to other parts of the house. Also if you had to get somewhere and not be wet you could ride a SeaDoo or something....the walls would have to be high enough so as to not get stuff wet.  Anyway I recently saw this online.....

It is not quite what I was dreaming of but its headed in the right direction.  If I ever make it big...its coming...and friends and family are all invited.  It would make me soooo happy. 

It has been awhile...

          I am sorry it has been sooo long since my last posting. Truth be told...I have a number of things I want to get off of my chest which has prevented me from posting.  Since my dads posting, I haven't wanted to post unless it was about him. I have so much more to say about him and he deserves more said from me. He was such a huge part of my life.  It has been hard for me. Today I have found the motivation to just post something little and easy to maybe get me going. 

This first pic I bet a few of you all have seen. 

I love this for so many reasons. My first thought that this bird had no clue what it was getting in to. My second thought is that this bird is going to be cleaning its self for a very long time if it didn't die in the chocolate.  My last thought it that this is what I would love to happen to me. I want to be this bird. I love chocolate that much. That last picture of the bird is me. I actually am ok if I die this way as well.  I LOVE CHOCOLATE!!!

Allison and Dad are some rocks of mine.

One year ago today I was lucky enough to marry my love Allison. It was a physically dreary day but it was such a beautiful day. In fact I would have it no other way. So many loving and close people came to celebrate with us. I was gaining a beautiful and strong lady in my life and I couldn't have been happier. It was such a special day.

 It was really a process of gaining a new rock in each others lives. The ceremony was really justAllison and I running thru the rock rules. We need to be there for each other...no matter what is going on...we need to be there for each other. Allison and I are going to go thru a lot but a rock is something so important to have.  To let someone else be a rock for you is scary. You put so much into a person and hope they don't leave but hope they stay and help.  To truly appreciate it...you have to open up to the rock....share experiences together...

It was so important to me that if he was able to...I wanted my dad to be my best man. He couldn't hear and had struggled with dementia and heart problems for years. I was told by a few to choose someone else. There was no choice to me. My dad had been my rock since I was born.  I mean a rock. A very strong loving man with a charm and humor that makes you feel at peace. My dad was there and we all celebrated together. It was such a special day.

Well my dad passed away this pass tuesday and though the day was dreary...it was again a beautiful day shared with so many loving and caring people.  I lost a big rock in my life in my dad. It has hurt me so. I am going to blog on that later but not having him here is so hard. I can't put into words our bond or his love or my pain. That said...it was a year ago that I gained a rock...my beautiful wife Allison.

I didn't know how Allison or I would handle this...Allison already having lost her parents and me losing one of mine for the first time.  Well Allison has been awesome. I wouldn't have been able to make it without her. She did everything asked and more. I can't tell you how much peace she has brought to me thru this hard time. I really lucked out with this rock of mine.  The loss of my dad hurts me so. I know I will lose more as life goes on but Allison reminds me without saying a word how much I have gained thru it all.

Here is a picture for our wedding last year with my dad and me walking together. I say goodbye to you for now dad but I will see you again. Until then...I know I have a beautiful rock here in my wife of a year.    Happy Anniversary Allison!!! I love you so!!! I hope to be a rock to you Allison as my dad was for me. Love you dad!!! Goodbye......for now